mind constapation
today my family and i headed into the city to see the bodies exhibit. i thought i would have loved it but honestly it freaked me out. i didn't like seeing human bodies dissected and mutilated the way they were. i got an uneasy feeling from seeing fetus' and cancerous lungs, breasts, and brains. i felt nauseous at the sight of my bones on parade. i learned a lot though. i learned that my dad is interested in more than just getting the job done and making money to support three teenagers. i learned that i have 0 tolerance for preserved penises. gross+++. after the bodies my family and i went to (the real) Ray's Pizza. soooo amazing. best pizzai have ever tasted in my life, it was a huge slice too, but so worth it. after that it kind of went downhill... my dad took us to one of the 10 american apparel locations, this one in Soho. i bought one of their polyblend t-shirts...it was $18. i feel/felt so guilty. i got ripped for it later in the car and i got so angry that my dad was lecturing me about how i can't manage money that i threw the shirt in the bag at the steering wheel. it felt so tainted i didn't even want to look at it. but i'm wearing it right now and i am not going to lie, i really love it. it's so comfortable and to me , it was worth $18, but i can't support this little habit. i need another job. i need to start making lists. i need to list what i need to do before summer, what i need to do before senior year 07, what i need to do before college. what i need to do to produce and A+ me, what i need to do to feel better. i wish i could control the weather. i'm going to make earl gray tea and hit the sack early, i think i deserve it.
